I Finally See Him!

This photo was taken on Friday, February 4th, 2022. Four days prior I had been on the

fourth watch when God dropped a bomb on me. He said something to me that I was just not expecting... Sitting in my living room while the other members of the Grant Family slept the Lord spoke to me. I heard Him clearly right after the final wind of my husband's snore 😂

God began to remind me of just how far

my husband had come. I was able to clearly identify changes that I had been praying to God about earnestly for years. A few months prior, after years of procrastination, I finally surrendered to God that I was not a superhero. 😒 I had entered into a "rest" season. This is when God truly revealed Himself to me!

As I'm sitting in the living room God firmly said to me "much of what he (my husband) was enduring was because he chose me and our family. God made it known to me that my husband was happy with his lifestyle before me and had it not been for his desire to please God, protect, and provide for us, things would be drastically different.

Furthermore, He said, honor him, respect him, make him feel seen! This was a wake-up call. Somehow, the social norm is that men must show these extreme gestures to women but this does not often enough speak to the lack of reciprocity on our parts as women.

Of course, I am not saying that there aren't any covenant wives who prioritize the appreciation of their husbands however it is quite noticeable that you have to be running with a certain community of people for this to be normal practice.

Here God was telling me that it was time to not think of myself for once. I'm not talking about everyday responsibilities because both he and I have them. I'm talking about going above and beyond to put my love for him into action.

I went into 2022 with a mandate to discipline my spending but I also wanted to show my husband how valuable he is to me.

I decided to plan a dinner date at home but this couldn't be like any other time. I took the time to plan our dinner menu, I'd decided on 3 courses: appetizer, entrée, and dessert. I even sent my husband a personalized dinner invitation that he had to RSVP to. We love music, music has been a part of our relationship since the start, so I put much thought into the playlist for the evening.

I went the extra mile to put the same effort in that he would have had it been his turn to pick a nice restaurant with great food and ambiance.

The lesson here is men though they may not express their feelings and emotions like women, they also like nice things, nice gestures, and to be thought of just like we do!

This flipped a switch in my soul ( my mind, will, and emotion). I see him now! 💜 He's lovely, I had finally been able to see my husband as the man of God that I needed. At this moment I'd realized I had more in him than I had ever noticed. It was then that I understood how marriages lasted 30+ years.

This was humbling, for well over a decade I did not stop to consider that my husband might have been starving for my outward display of love and affection. I'm not talking about material things, we had that in the bag, I mean a deeper level of intimacy and friendship.

This has been such a refreshing experience!

Wives, date your husbands. Of course, there are all kinds of circumstances that could challenge that ideal but for those who can relate, for those who found resonation with this post, date your husband! He deserves it...

I hope you found comfort in this testimony, come back soon!

Tash— 💜